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[22 Jan 2007|09:58pm] |
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I'm nervous. I'm nervous about college, i'm nervous about moving out, i'm nervous about going to europe for most of my summer, and i'm nervous about what's going to happen before all of this stuff happens. I know whatever happens happens, but I hate being uncertain about life. I feel like i'm here to change the world. Even though I know that helping out individuals and doing charitable activities all help make the world a better place, I just feel like if I don't change the entire world then my life was a failure. My family keeps on trying to convince me to become a doctor, or a dentist, or anything that makes good money. But I know I want to get a degree in law and go on to become a politician because politics is what influences society the most. I guess i'm just nervous because I put high expectations on myself that I feel that I have to achieve.
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[15 Oct 2006|12:54am] |
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so i dropped a T.V. four feet on my foot today. i still dont know how the tv and my foot didnt both break. oh well, im going to bed, waking up at 7 on a saturday sucks.
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| "Tigers Bleaux" |
[09 Oct 2006|03:24am] |
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So this weekend was really good. Hung out with Tina all friday night which is always fun. i didnt get home till around 4 which probally wasnt too smart because i had to drive up to gainesville at 9 in the morning the next day. so i drove up to gainesville and went tailgating right away after arriving. then i got a ticket and went to the UF/ LSU game with my brother and his friends. that game was so great. just the atmosphere of the stadium was amazing during the whole game. makes me really want to go to UF. then we went to a party afterwards and went home around 1. on sunday i slept in late and got some lunch with my brother. then i got a couple of cd's and drove home. i think life is going pretty damn good right now.
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[29 Sep 2006|01:53pm] |
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Today has been going pretty well. i got my class ring today and found my band shirt. i also got the itenerary for the europe trip. i really cant wait for that. octoberfest in german was also pretty fun, so much food.
im looking forward to the game tonight. the bus ride there and back should be pretty fun. i also have a good feeling that it's going to be a good game.
im also looking forward to possibly going up to gainesville next weekend. My brother called me today and me and him talked for a few minutes which was nice. i havnt talked to him in awhile.
Now i have to call muhammed and tell him about my theory for the game tonight.
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| I wrote this post a long time aaaggooo, a real long time ago. |
[04 Sep 2006|11:30am] |
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Well, the two week extravaganza known as Palmapolooza is finally over. Not too much is broken, the house is back to normal, there is absoultly no more alcohol in the house, and everyone that came seemed to enjoy themselves. So much happened these past two weeks, but all of it has been a success. Thanks to everyone that came and partied.
Hopefully this coming up weekend i'll be in Gainesville at the UF/ UCF game. i'm looking forward to it.
Now i think i need to catch up on some sleep this week.
R.I.P Crocodile Hunter. You were a god among reptiles.
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[04 Sep 2006|11:26am] |
Well, the two week extravaganza known as Palmapolooza is finally over. Not too much is broken, the house is back to normal, there is absoultly no more alcohol in the house, and everyone that came seemed to enjoy themselves. Thanks to everyone that came and partied.
Hopefully this coming up weekend i'll be in Gainesville at the UF/ UCF game. i'm looking forward to it.
Now i think i need to catch up on some sleep this week.
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| Palmapolooza '06 |
[28 Aug 2006|10:20pm] |
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So this weekend meshed together to one day in which i was trashed the whole time and i only got 9 hours of sleep. friday night, started out shitty but turned out to be hella fun. i love late starts to parties. saturday, napped a little during the day and i dont really remember what i did before the party. but ya, we partied and that became the puke night. cleaning up was a bitch but it was still a fun time. robby was the coolest drunk guy that night. sunday, went to lagoonz and lounged in my parents bed during the afternoon. then hoff came over and we went to walmart and taco bell. then we started beerfest which was stressful for me at first but became fun when i started to drink. blaise is ridiclous when he is drunk. i was also proud of karen of running outside when she had to puke. thats another reason why i think shes the smartest person i know. really the only bad part of the weekend was cleaning up the place the morning after each party. but hotcakes at mcdonalds always made the mornings better. also, josh brown and josh drew randomly showing up at my parties was pretty sweet. well im pretty tired and me and tiffany got into another fight tongiht. big surprise there. i need some sleep.
yay for Hurricane Ernesto.
yay for not having band tomorrow night.
yay for another three day weekend.
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| My birthday post! |
[17 Aug 2006|11:25pm] |
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I have the best friends in the world. i dont know what i would do without them.
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[15 Aug 2006|09:27pm] |
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i hate my mom, i hate getting blamed for shit i didn't do, and i hate being the 5th wheel. im sorry if u lost you're fucking sunglasses but dont start yelling at me then expect me to appoligize when i yell back. news flash, i could not care less about your stupid ass sunglasses. thank you mom, you're about to ruin my birthday in a couple of days.
and another thing i hate being the fifth wheel whenever i hang out with you guys. im sorry i rather go camping than see a movie on friday. but when i hang out with you guys i get depressed because i see u guys paired off and i have no one. im just goofy palma, dont mind me.
i hate this place.
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| "Let's all discover." |
[09 Aug 2006|08:32pm] |
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It still hasn't felt like school started for me yet. i slept in, went to school for one block, then went out to lunch with my dad. in german ms blanner talked about the europe trip next summer. i cant wait, it's going to be so fun. going to portugal, spain, france, switzerland, and germany with my friends. it'll be the coolest trip ever. but something that's not cool is that every night of the week until the first part of november is that i wont be home till 9 everynight. oh well, at least i have the days off.
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[08 Aug 2006|02:40am] |
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Man, driving home from Windover tonight, i did not see one car driving anywhere.
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[06 Aug 2006|11:27pm] |
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So summer is coming to a close, and i think im ready for school to start. Band Camp always for some reason makes me want to back to school every year. I've been tired all day and ive had to mow the lawn and give my truck a much needed bath. Drinking that captain Morgans last night was not a good idea. Then tonight i got to say goodbye to the Holland girls. i wish i met them sooner than 4 days ago but what can you do. And that wasp stinging me in the ear kinda sucked. Seriously, what are the chances of someone getting stung on the ear by a wasp twice within a year. oh well, thank god for benedryl.
I'm pretty happy with my schedule. i have only one class at THS and that's German I and Randy is in it which should be fun. but my BCC classes might give me some trouble. biology, american gov, and U.S. History I. oh well, ill pull through, i always do.
So last night made me realize that i cannot wait untill my parents leave for two weeks. That is going to be great.
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[26 Jul 2006|08:24pm] |
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So band camp is tomorrow, and im kind of excited. i get to see people that i havnt seen all summer. should be fun.
Volunteering at the hospital was pretty fun even though there wasnt much to do. there was this one 80 year old woman that was also on the shift and she was so cool. she never called the other lady by her correct name and she kept on telling me to take a sandwitch that were for the doctors. i hope i get to volunteer with her again. i love cool old people.
Well i need to get to bed early tonight. yaaaayyyyyyyy.
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| "This is some real redneck fishing right here." |
[24 Jul 2006|01:30am] |
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myspace is down so i decided to update my lj.
So summer is almost over. i acuatly want school to come. senior year should be great and stressing. i just need to get my sleeping pattern changed before school starts. waking up at 2 everyday in the afternoon is going got screw me over.
So band camp is coming up. i acuatly really want to do marching band this year. ive done it every year since freshman year so i should just finish it up this year.
So this week is going to be busy. tomorrow i got to write a 8 minute long speech, then on tuesday i have to go to class for 4 hours and give the speech. on wendesday i start volunteering at the hospital. i cant wait to use that freaking id card to open a door in there. on thursday, i have class for 4 hours, friday i need a haircut, and on saturday i have senior photos. yeup, busy.
So i dont know how to feel about senior year. i know its going to be great and lots of fun, but i have to do so much within a year. taking the sat, applying for colleges, choosing where to go, getting scholarships, finding dorms or apartments, then going to europe for a month next summer. its kind of a bittersweet feeling.
But some things im deff looking forward to are my birthday in 24 days. snakes on a plane in 25 days. and Kanye West's new album, Graduation, later this year or early next year. pretty sweet.
O.K. so im done rambling.
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[02 Jul 2006|01:13pm] |
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So last night was pretty great, it was probally the last party Bailly will have at her house for awhile. it was probally her best party yet too. i felt classy with my half gallon screwdriver in one hand and a margrita in the other. good times.
Speaking of good times, i was probally the happiest that i've been in a long time yesterday after portugal won. it was a shitty game, but damn portugal pulled through. its amazing how emotionally attached i am to that team. i have a good feeling that they can win this world cup.
So i guess it's my house tonight. pretty sweet.
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[29 Jun 2006|02:00am] |
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I'm Exhausted. woke up today and had to take a bunch of rotten wood to the dump. then i had to completely clean my room and wash the dog. then i did 25 laps in my pool and played soccer for a hour. i am just out of energy. now i have to go to class in 10 hours. funnnnn.
I really like this seu jorge cd. i know its just some brazilian guy singing david bowie songs in portuguese, but it just makes me happy after i listen to it. i guess its because its in portuguese and reminds me of portugal. i was always happy when i visited portugal. i remember that i always whistled while i was there, and i never whistle unless i'm really happy.
I guess i should start being nicer to everyone. i always just thought no one would take it serious when i was just messing around with them but i just do it too much now. i also cant let my ego overtake me and have myself think that im better than everyone else because that deff. is not true. My mom always told me that i am never better than anyone else and no one is better than me. i need to start taking that advice more.
Also, these past few days have made me think how close i am from leaving this town and going to college. just one more year till i start packing my things and move into an apartment. part of me is happy about that and cant wait to leave in only a year, but another part is not quite ready to leave this town and go off on my own in only a year. either way, im happy i still have a year left of high school.
Speaking of being on my own, im pretty excited about my parents leaving this weekend. cant wait to go to some parties and have some parties. its going to be so fun. i need a job badly. and i also need to go to sleep badly coz i have class in a few hours.
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[25 Jun 2006|11:15pm] |
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So today was pretty excellent. Mostly because portugal won 1-0 against the netherlands. it was the uggliest game in years though. ref was horrible.
i also got this new seu jorge cd. i like it a lot.
so my parents are leaving next saturday and arent coming back till the following wednesday. so i think we all know what that means. im going to start it off with an all day world cup party on that saturday.
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| "lets go to the Everglades!" "NO" |
[20 Jun 2006|01:43am] |
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So, south florida was pretty fun. a lot of good times, new people, etc. South Florida is nice and everything, but i think for going to high school, titusville is a little better. and the roads down there never end.
So World Cup soccer is amazing. im really into it now. same with smash brothers. two amazing things.
So i gotta do a lot of things tomorrow that ive been pushing back coz i wasnt in town this last weekend. hospital, online class, glasses, job hunting, working on my truck, and laundry are all waiting for me when i get up tomorrow. yay.
So i like my new liscense plate. DOO 1WF. get it? DOO one white female. ahahahahahahahahaha. classic.
Fucking jake. he's impossible to beat in smash brothers. toolbag.
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| Random thoughts after midnight... |
[15 Jun 2006|12:32am] |
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well... it's 12:30 and im bored and not tired.
You know, i was walking in the hallway in my house today, and i was just kicking a nickle while i was walking. While i was walking, my dad came out of his room to go to the kitchen and exclaimed,
"It's bad luck to kick money around."
Made me think, who says that it's bad luck? It's just a nickle, made out of some cheap metal that is circulated all throughout the U.S. It's also only worth 5 cents which really isn't much at all in todays society. It's really only worth something when it's put together with other money, but alone, its pretty much nothing. I just think how something so small and cheap can become part of something big. Maybe one day, that nickle will become a coin in someones piggy bank and will part of the sum of money that that person gets. And maybe that person uses that money and invests it in the stock market and that stock makes that person very rich. And that person gives a large amount of that money to a medicine research lab that enables that lab to buy new equipment that enables a cure for cancer to be made. And that nickle, that i was kicking down the hallway is part of all that. Alone it's not worth much, but with more of it's kind, it can be worth a lot. Maybe it is bad luck to kick money around. Or it can just be that i was kicking a nickle down my hallways and decided to over anaylize one of my dads offbeat comments.
I just don't know.
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| "man these portuguese players are aragont" "oh, so thats where i get it from" |
[11 Jun 2006|09:14pm] |
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man, i havn't written in this thing in awhile. so summer has been going well. takuing classes, volunteering, hanging out, etc. NYC has been the highlight of the summer so far. i love that city. i even chose out my future apartment on west central park facing central park. the plays were also pretty good. this past week ive watched the whole firefly series and movie. man i love that show, they really need to bring it back.
I'm also pretty excited about the world cup. i promise, if portugal makes it to the championship game, i will have the biggest party.
why do i like you? i know i shouldn't, and people tell me i shouldn't, but i do. and now that you're back and i see that nothing will happen, i should just give up.
hopefully ill be going down to south florida sometime this next week.
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